It is the liquid
Flowing through
My blood
Dashing around
My veins
Not water
You see
It is Anger
My anger
Spells a visceral
Discharging of bullets
From my heart
The neglect
Perceived or real
From those
Who I thought respected
My work
Not of me personally
That is a given
Everyone gets respected as a person
Yet the anger rests
It remains strong
Deep in my heart
At those who fail
Or at least refuse
To recognise
That I may have some skill
To offer society
Not a DJ?
Not a Poet?
'God no, we can't let him in
To our circle'
The rejection hurt me
It pained me deep
But I am through this now
No longer do I care so much
For others who don't do so about me
I will ignore their pleas
For they never gave me such recognition
That I could actually do something
Apart from join the club
Or take a drink
Or smoke something
The days when I simply toed the line
And followed the crowd
Are over
I am my own man
Really, I was all along
But I know this now to be true
I am a leader among men
A follower, not
So follow me for a change
Cos I'm not goin' to follow your party
I got my own life to run
I don't need others
To keep me happy
Others will come to me in time
I am a leader
This anger has propelled me
It has taken me to dark places
Places I am uncomfortable talking about
Places that shame me and still cause me upset
For I cannot talk openly
About some troubles on my mind
But my opinions
Do matter
They are valid
Though they do not need to be aired
Or written about
I have the angriest moods
Yet I am a kind and gentle fellow
Who sees a lot of wrong
Going down in this town
I cannot ignore
But know that it would only bore
To go on about the badness
That pervades
So my anger
I will channel this anger
Bring it into my artistic style
So I can carve some beautiful
Linguistic ornaments
For others to marvel at
Instead of screaming
The hate out
And destroying
Others with my bile
I will use my anger
In a positive way
Keep my toxic views
And opinions
To myself
So that others
Can live and breath
Peacefully
My anger is a precious gift
I will use it wisely
As it beats through
My system
Flowing out of my heart
Through my veins
But never in vane
My anger will be with me
But It will not be me
I choose to use it in this way
So others will see
There is a decent man
Alongside the hatred
I love, yet hate rejection
This is my pain
The epicentre
Of my anger
So I will rise
Like a phoenix
Out of the ashes of my rage
To hit the page
And escape the stages
That have damaged
My abilities
Use my anger
Not let it use me
As I continue
To move and groove
Shuffle and hustle
Away from the crowd
On my own
On my own terms
My anger will take me
But it won't break me
Honey, I'm strong
This anger ain't wrong
I just need the release
In order to be free
So my anger pours
Like rain
Coming down down down
But not on anyone
Instead I will use it
My anger will not abuse
For I will flow like
A bird over rooftops
Like water gushing through a pipe
Like fire burning up a chimney
My anger is my energy
Baby don't worry
I ain't in a hurry
This anger is my curry
So that's it
My statement is clear
Now time to get outta here.
© Iano, 2019
